A lot has led to this piece below. It’s a journey of many years, but a journey that has now come to an end. This is my testimony, and I am proud to share it unreservedly:
I have been a victim, but I have also played the victim.
I have had low self-esteem, but I have also lowered my esteem.
I have suffered from the words of others, but I have also battered myself with my words.
I have longed for the approval of others but hardly approved of myself.
I have sought for love in all the wrong places but barely loved myself.
I have lived in the fear of rejection when daily I rejected myself.
I have watched others try to dim my light but I’ve never allowed my light to shine.
I have been molested but molest myself daily living in the shadows of my past.
I have belittled myself so you can pity me, I project weakness only to identify with you. When did I believe it was okay to muddy myself in your dirt so I can look like you?
I commend you by portraying a weaker me in comparison to the strength you seem to display, but deep down inside I’m wondering why I just can’t commend your strength and simply walk away.
I have also pretended to walk among the strong while my legs were shivering in weakness, only to keep up appearances, even when no one was really watching. It’s sad the reality of life when one chooses to live for the eyes of men, neglecting the One who truly sees all.
The devil thought he won the battle on my identity, but the Cross is his permanent defeat. All those years of attacking my mind from my childhood up to this point, trying to destroy and pervert all the God made has failed.
I AM FREE!!!
I have been free but didn’t accept my freedom to live in the truth of it, but today, everything has changed.
I am free from playing the victim
I am free to live my God-esteem
I am free from the words that caged me
I am free to be who God made me be
I am free from the shadows of my past
I am free to shine His light
I am free from my fears of rejection
I am free to enjoy the greatest love of all
I am free from rolling in the mud of others
I am free to stand strong
I am free to walk forgiven
I am free to forgive
I am OluwaTosin, I am God’s child . . .
I AM FREE!
“They have greatly oppressed me from my youth,” let Israel say; “they have greatly oppressed me from my youth, but they have not gained the victory over me. Ploughmen have ploughed my back and made their furrows long. But the Lord is righteous; he has cut me free from the cords of the wicked.” Psalm 129:1-4
What a wonderful Declaration of victory! Thank you for sharing.
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I am so blessed that I can share it. Thank you for celebrating with me 🤗🤗🤗
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God has been, and is, working a mighty work in you, my blessed and beautiful sister in the Lord! Hallelujah! I sense scales on the floor, swept away as you dance in delight in the presence of your Almighty God and Savior, Lover of your soul.
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My spirit responded to your comment and I shook. The scales have fallen and have been swept into the fire!!!!! Hallelujah!!!!
God bless you, my sweet big sister 🤗
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I praise our amazing, beautiful, magnificent God!!!
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Tosin, we have a friend in prison, and I printed out your testimony here to mail to him. Before sealing the envelope, my husband read the letter and your testimony. “Wow,” he said. “I need a copy of this. Can I make a copy?”
That reinforced my idea that I very much would like to share your post. May I post this on my blog?
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You’re allowed to share anything from this blog, Kathy. God has been so gracious to us, giving us ourselves to encourage each other. I’m so blessed to know that this testimony resounds with so many.
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Thank you, and Wow, it sure does!
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OluwaTosin is free!
Deandra Elaine is free!
Through Jesus, we are free because per His words, “whom the Son sets free, is free indeed!”
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Hallelujah!!!! We are free indeed!!!!!!!
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Set free by accepting Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior! But at times still being caged by the people who surround me! Why is it so hard? Blessings, Elfriede
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It does seem hard, but the devil has surely deceived us to think it is impossible and that is one of his greatest lies. Our spirit is given life by the Spirit of God to live above the approval of men and fix our eyes on the One who can kill body and send the soul to hell. In Him, we have complete redemption. I pray for you today, that you will receive the grace to walk in that freedom and that the lies of the enemy is silenced, in the name of Jesus! Amen
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Tosin this is just the best!! I can identify with it all…off the topic question; because I’m so nosey👃What does your name mean? I love it btw
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I like you being nosey 😂😂😂
Oluwatosin: God is worthy of worship (Yoruba language)
Oluwa – God Almighty
to – is enough
sin – worship
Cheers to your first Yoruba class 😂
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I googled Yoruba and there’s some YouTube videos on how to speak the language! Put it on my bucket list
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I probably should join you, cos I don’t speak it much myself 🙈
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love that
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Thank you so much for this post.l see myself in it without yet finding the freedom. Reading your declaration l see its possible.
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As you have read my testimony, I pray it will be yours by the mercies of our God! In Jesus’ name. Amen
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I hear silence, the sound of mourning in the camp of the enemy – for they have lost the battle over your mind. God is unleashing his latest weapon, YOU!
This has made my day…celebration mode on
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Hallelujah!!! 🙌🙌🙌🙌
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Girl this pierced my heart. I can identify with every word spoken. Yes sis! Freedom is here! Freedom is now! You are free indeed! Amen!
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Hallelujah!!! This will always remain our confession.
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Amen!
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You are free dear one in the LORD JESUS CHRIST! Someone once told me…….don’t let anyone ever steal your joy. We have the joy in JESUS who sets us free! Loved your authenticity here dear one!
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Thank you for celebrating with me, dear Maxine. Indeed, He has turned my wailing into dancing 🕺
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Isn’t that wonderful?? GOD is so GOOD all the time!
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wow! this has left me speechless.
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Awwww. Bless you, Wendi 🤗🤗🤗🤗
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thank you and may God bless you!
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Amen.
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